Finding my balance

We are coming up on the half-way mark of this first month of the year and in some ways I feel like I’m still struggling to get out of last year.

Climbing

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One of things I’ve been working on for a while (and probably will from here on out) is maintaining balance in my life. This is a challenge for me. I’m an all-or-nothing kind of gal. When I do something, I like to do it right and give it everything I’ve got. The “nothing” typically comes when I’m all given out and have nothing left to give.

This almost always reflects in my weight, too. I’m an emotional eater. When I feel off-kilter, I almost always turn to food for comfort. Instead of God.

Word Web gives this definition of balance:

Harmonious arrangement or relation of parts or elements within a whole  (as in a design)

Harmonious arrangement. Each piece of life complimenting the others. Working together. Creating something beautiful.

This is how I would love for my life to feel.

It’s God desire for me, too.

Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. {Romans 12:1, NIV}

Creating balance

I do feel much more balanced than I was several years ago. I’ve learned to release anger and unrealistic expectations. I’ve overcome the pain of loss and paralyzing fear.

But somehow there is a part of me that feels like I’m still teetering. Slightly uneven. Bobbling left to right, trying to find that delicate balance.

So here’s my plan of how I’ll begin working to create even more balance. It’s just a plan though, and I realize that if I do not purposefully seek to follow it on a daily (hour-to hour, minute-by-minute) basis, it will be of no use. I will also revisit and revise my plan as needed. I’m thinking a monthly review will serve as great points of reference.

 Beginning steps to creating balance:

  1. Begin each day with Jesus {prayer, meditation, Word, study}
  2. Weekly & daily lists {to do, important things to remember}
  3. Refilling my well {Morning Pages, art/journaling, reading}

Helpful Resources

If you’re on a quest for a balanced life, too, here are some resources that I’ve particularly found insightful and/or useful that might be of use to you as well.

How do you create and maintain balance in your life?

*disclosure

The balancing act

I have a confession to make. I’m no good at balancing life.

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One of my weaknesses (that I can’t seem to get a grip on) is that I find it really difficult to say no. I’m sure a lot of this is because of my past. Feeling like I need to try to please others to make them like/love me.

But it just doesn’t work that way.

I get worn out.

Slap worn out. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically.

And when the balancing act becomes too much, the stack begins to teeter. Then one by one, things come crashing down around my feet.

Broken Glass on Concrete
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Tears. Frustration. Anger.

Why can’t I do it all? Why can’t I have it all?

The one thing I never seem to ask myself is why do I think I need to manage so much at one time?

Truthfully, it’s all me.

Most of the time I don’t even realize how much I’ve taken on. I think I have this insane tendency to blindly add more to the rising tower. I’m not so sure I’m doing blindly. Maybe it’s more like I know what I’m doing but refuse to acknowledge the bloated list of tasks and responsibilities.

Maybe if I ignore the lop-sided monster of a mountain on my shoulders it will magically take care of itself.

Do you deal with this same issue? Have you experienced the struggle of feeling like you need to do everything?

The problem with this is eventually (and usually much sooner, rather than later), we do begin to drop the ball. As things crumble around us, we wonder why we can’t keep adding more. What we should be doing is asking God to help us say no to the things we truly cannot handle.

It isn’t easy. Asking for help (even from God) has never been easy for me. I’m a do-it-all-myself kind of gal. I don’t like asking for help or feeling like I have to rely on someone else for help.

I’ve been reminded over the last couple of weeks that God wants to help me. He doesn’t find it an arduous duty. He finds pleasure in my turning to Him for guidance and assistance.

I don’t want to juggle anymore.

I’d rather do a few things really well, than to attempt to take on way more than I can handle and end up failing–or worse yet, doing them all half-way.

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